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My Own Worst Enemy

No we're not talking about the LIT song. Though that is a tune!!

 I'm talking about me and me!

 I am SO lucky to be surrounded by what I consider an amazing cheer leading team. some of the strongest, loudest, most amazing people a girl could ever wish to have as support.

 But there's one voice, louder, more stubborn and WAY more annoying than anyone.

 Mine!!

 I am a stubborn person by nature, i am my fathers daughter. So you'd think i'd be one of those women that took something between her teeth and didn't let go until i reached my goal even if someone tried tugged it away from me hard enough. Maybe form the outside, that exactly who i am.....but this voice inside tells me every single second of every single day that I can't do this, that i don't deserve it, that i shouldn't even try, cos i'm only going to give up. 

 So i always feel like i'm failing. 

 I'm always comparing myself to others, even though i tell everyone not to do that, because we are all different. We all have different goals and we all achieve them differently. I never really compare myself aesthetically, more focused driven, i wish i had other peoples self control, will power or drive.
Though i'm sure a lot of people wish they had mine. But its one of those things isn't it, when you want something bad enough, you go get it.

 I'm at that point again in this journey where i'm happier than i was, but i'm still so unhappy. So my constant (or what feel constant) slip ups are making me plateau...and i'm not ready for that.

 tonight is weigh in....last week i lost 3.5lbs, i was so on plan, mostly SP. then i went away this weekend, i ate and i drank, and i continued to eat since i came back....so we'll see where i am after weigh-in this week.

 The diary will be coming out tonight, because without a plan i FAIL so bad! We got this!

 Keep it positive
Ness
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