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It Didn't Fit.....

I've posted before about how frustrated I am with my up and down weight at the moment.

Dispite that I know that I'm not going to put all my weight back on...actually I need to stop calling it "my" weight, cos I don't want it!!! I know I'm getting smaller, bit by bit. People tell me all the time when I see them that I'm not as round as I had got. But I'm not at the goals I set myself. That's my biggest frustration.
The only person who can make a change with that is me. I know this! But as I said in one of my posts. I am my own worst enemy!!

So this morning I went for a run, harder than Mondays, I walked for about 30 seconds until I told myself to get a shift on! But I went, always hard on a dark cold morning. I know I feel so much better, mentally, when I go.

Got back, went through the motions, shower, dry hair, decide what I'm going to wear.....grabbed a skirt I haven't worn in a while, a stretchy pencil skirt with a galaxy pattern on. Usually hugs all my curves and usually worn on a confident day or I over think my tummy. (Note to self: Like get over it already)

It's too big!!! Sure I could have worn it, not like it would have fallen down, but it didn't hug my hips...at all....so it looked baggy and weird.
So I grabbed a 50's style midi skirt. Classic black and white stripes. My waist has always been the smallest part of me (even at my heaviest, it was chunky but still there) but this skirt has always been snug on that part....

Not today!! It's quite roomy!!!

I told myself at the beginning of this journey that this would be a marathon, not a race, but I certainly cannot continue being so 3 steps forward 2 steps back.... 3:1 ratio I could handle, but this 3:2 has to stop!!

This week is going well, my dinner plans got cancelled which I was a little glad about, not sure i could have handled trying to be good eating out. I have plans on Friday and Saturday. So wish my luck with trying to eat well!

Keep it Positive
Ness

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