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I messed up.....

So.....I've messed up!
BIG style!!
and i want to talk about it, i need to admit out-loud that this happens.....more than i care to admit. but maybe admitting it will help me!

It was all going so well......until i devoured a tub of Ben & Jerry's (vegan obvs) a Nandos, a whole big bar of Bournville (i was supposed to be eating it square by square (1syn each!) a tub of houmous and a tube of pringles....ohh and a packet of cookies, and some bourbons, i threw half the packet away so i didn't eat the rest, so wasteful i know!!!

I do not know why i binge like this, but this is exactly where my weight comes from. I tend to eat well, most of the time, but these binges take me over the edge..... then i find it hard to stop....

Today is the start of a brand new day. I AM TIRED!! like seriously tired, not sure why i think i slept ok. But i am going to stick to plan. Basics, free foods, fruit and some bournville.....not the whole packet this time!

I'm so frustrated with myself! I was thinking this morning that if i could have 1 month without bingeing, i would be at target.

This year sees me at a lot of weddings, and i do not want to be captured on people's pictures forever how i currently look. yes i am so so proud of the weight I've lost so far, and i am so much happier....but not happy enough.

The week before was a perfect week, totally back to basics, totally in control, and i lost 5.5lbs!
Weight in is Wednesday this week, looking after a friends cat while she's away so going to the one near her house.....

Wish me luck....lets hope it's not too bad....
Thanks for reading
Keep it Positive

Nessa

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