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18 months ago....Open Letter to My Besties


18 months ago I wrote to some of my closest girls and asked them to help me....Help isn't something I'm very good at asking for.
And I think this is just as relevant now. I've been on and off the wagon for some time now, but I need to get serious again!

Hey girls,

This might come as a shock, or may sounds very intense, but you guys know how much I want to lose some weight and get fit and healthy, and you all know how much this hasn't happened for me.

And I don't think this is going to happen while I’m still doing the same things I've always been doing.

So, I'm going to start turning down dinners, drinks, some events to focus on me for a while. 

Some things I've already paid for I’m going to do, as I don't want to stop living my life. But I do need to focus on the food I put into my body, and let’s face it, I’m not strong enough to go out and order a salad.

I'm opening up, and I don't want sympathy, I don't want you to tell me I’m doing well. I want to ask you for your support and help me achieve my goals, I'd love you to help me keep on track, Come for a run with me, let’s go for a walk on a weekend rather than coffee and cake, let’s go to a gig and don't let me drink :) (After all I burnt just over 700 calories dancing around to A Day To Remember the other weekend!!)

A video was taken of me last night dancing and I've spent pretty much all morning crying, I hate the girl I saw, this isn't me. You all know I'm the happy bubbly one, but I’m losing her, I love that you all think I’m pretty and gorgeous, you all tell me all the time, but I'm really struggling, I've been hiding how much I’m struggling. But I feel in order to move forward, I need to tell you guys this. 

So please don't be mad at me if I refuse dinner, or drinks, but for a while (maybe a few months) I need to be hitting the gym, going for a run, making sure I’m fuelling my body well.

You guys are some of my closest people, and I know you're my best support network.
Love you guys
xx

I'm going to start this again....I'm going to only go out with people who want to go for a big walk before dinner (that being a salad!) or swimming or running or dancing (without drinking)

I want to become obsessed with being a woman comfortable in her own body!

Thanks for reading
Keep it Positive

Nessa

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Twitter: @KawaiiVeganNess


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